i watched a video today with the title ‘have you found your soul mate’ and it got me thinking. do i believe in soul mates? what is a soul mate? as the video went on it brought more questions. is this idea like that of fate or destiny? and do i believe in those ideas?
i think the idea of fate and destiny is idealistic. these are ideas you see in movies. you watch as people find their person that was put on the earth for them and start living their dream fulfilling the reason they were put on this earth. i’d like that to be real, and i’d like to believe that is real- but i’m not sure i do. and if i don’t believe in those does that mean i shouldn’t believe in a soul mate?
as i keep watching the video i realize that what i previously believed the definition of soul mate to be just might be a little skewed from what they are speaking on. i noticed that it was just referring to a person. any person. not just a romantic partner and from this point on i wholeheartedly believed that i had a soul mate.
every word this video spoke i heard: elyse.
from the moment i met this girl we had an immediate connection and since then i have never felt a bond like ours. i have had bestfriends in the past, but she is more than that phrase could ever do justice. this person is the person who knows me in and out. anytime i’m even the slightest bit off this girl knows. she has kept me thinking, accountable, safe, loved, in shape. she has wiped my tears more times than i could count. i have never felt the slightest bit of discomfort or uneasiness while with her and that i’m not sure i could say for anyone else on this earth.
this relationship is so hard to describe. this bond to me is so intellectual. we talk and think and force each other to do so. anytime i am with her i feel a need to talk about her. instead of the societal push to always talk about myself i get a complete shift. i want to hear about her and her experiences. i feel so close and immersed and emotionally invested in her life. like we are connected in some way.
we haven’t been around each other very much in the past year due to our age difference and the fact that i am in college now, but this whole time and distance hasn’t changed anything. i can call her and i know she would be here in moments if i needed her. maybe soul mate is the wrong word, but i know that elyse and i have a connection i have never felt before and i will never feel again. she is special in so many ways. she is strong and intriguing and some one i will never feel like i’ve had enough time with.
to my soul mate: you’ve changed me. you’ve helped mold me and my mind. you’ve pushed me when i believed i can no longer be pushed. and most importantly you’ve truly loved all of me unconditionally.
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